Okay, I went to bed around 1AM. I had a little indigestion because I had a late snack, ate it fairly quickly, then was laying down.
I woke up at 2:20 because I realized my fan wasn’t on (I turn it on high at night because my room gets hot)
Not sure what happened next… I don’t know if I fell back to sleep or not, or if I barely did then woke up again, I just remember my legs feeling really numb and I could not stop thinking about stuff I’m doing tomorrow, it was like.. racing thoughts that wouldn’t stop, and then my printer started randomly going off by itself and it scared the crap out of me. I’ve been awake ever since.
I tried watching TV for about a half an hour, then tried to go back to sleep with my lamp and TV on with the volume turned down low.
I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder (I don’t take medication, but wish I did, I’m just embarrassed to talk to my parents about it.. even though they already know, as I was officially diagnosed by a MD. I just dropped out of therapy because I was embarrassed and never talked about it again), and today was kind of a "big day" for me in that respect. I’m starting to volunteer at our local hospital and had to go in and get my uniform/ID badge/ect. I don’t know anybody there, so I’m pretty much on my own. I had a lady be slightly rude to me when I was getting my ID badge, and because of my condition, I just obsess and worry and worry and worry about things like that, so I was feeling a little upset.
I had to call a complete stranger to set up a training session for the position I’m taking at the hospital.
I’m also going to see if there is a job opening where my friend works tomorrow, at a nursing home.
I’m not used to really doing a lot of things on my own, introducing myself, being outgoing, ect. I’ve been really stressed today. It’s a bigger deal to me than it is to most people because of my anxiety.
Now, it’s 4AM and my stomach is killing me, and every time I try to fall asleep and I’m "almost there" this, what I can only describe as a numbing wave of complete panic washes over me, my heart starts pounding and I wake up again. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, this has never happened before. Am I having some sort of panic attack? When I was up earlier trying to calm down, it felt like my throat was closing up and my legs just felt really, really weak.
Yeah thats most likely an panic/Anxiety attack, Find something that will help keep your mind off it, I myself suffer from Anxiety really bad so I understand, Usually I listen to music that helps me calm down.
November 20th, 2009 at 7:01 am
I know what you mean. I would drink some hot tea try to listen to some soothing music and just try to forget about everything. Just try to forget. I would recomend Eating something and just watching something really boring on TV untill you fall asleep. I would recomend the medication because it seems you are having a really tough time.
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November 20th, 2009 at 7:40 am
Yeah thats most likely an panic/Anxiety attack, Find something that will help keep your mind off it, I myself suffer from Anxiety really bad so I understand, Usually I listen to music that helps me calm down.
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November 20th, 2009 at 7:45 am
yes i agree listen to music and relax its helps me with my anxiety and my panic atacks~
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November 20th, 2009 at 8:08 am
There’s no sin in taking medication til you feel better. Why suffer if you don’t have to?
Yes, high anxiety can cause severe chest pain and all the symptoms you described. If you get yourself sleep deprived for several nights, you might end up a real mess.
For now, stay calm. It’s normal for GAD. You’ll be fine for one night.
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November 20th, 2009 at 8:24 am
I know EXACTLY how you feel. I also suffer from panick attacks- and about the stupidest things,too. Just though you might want to know that you’re not the only one. I’m kinda happy to see i’m not the only one embarrassed about telling people, either. I told our school chaplain last week- he was really helpful, but i’m still a bit embarrsased to tell anyone else.
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